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Autism Dads

Fathers of autistic children are often lost and forgotten. Their feelings are not regularly discussed, their voices not heard, and their stories never told. If you were to google the words ‘autism blog’ you would discover pages and pages of words written by mothers, but there are comparitively very few that tell stories of what… Continue reading Autism Dads

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Confessions

Sawyer is an incredibly endearing and often hilarious 7-year-old. He is kind, inquisitive, outgoing and incredibly handsome.  He faces the challenges autism throws at him with admirable determination. The meltdowns, the sensory overload that fills his days, and his lack of special awareness are an example of the threads that tie Sawyer and autism together.… Continue reading Confessions

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Happy Meal

After school one day, I drove my children to our local Macdonald’s as a special treat. There was a time not long ago when I didn’t think Sawyer would ever feel the childhood elation of a random trip for fast food, and so each burger they consumed was as much a delight for me as… Continue reading Happy Meal

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The Bigger Picture

The emotions that run through me when I watch this old video are so conflicting. I'm filled with love. It seems like forever ago and also like yesterday. I remember those pyjamas, the new baby smell, the sleepless exhilaration that came with becoming mother of two children. But I also remember the feeling in the… Continue reading The Bigger Picture

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New Beginnings

I’ll never forget the first time Sawyer dropped a mince pie, picked it up, dropped it, picked it up again and placed it onto Santa’s tray. By the time his sixth year rolled around I was finally able to tell people that Sawyer was starting to get excited for Christmas. Although it happened far later… Continue reading New Beginnings

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Stolen Christmas

Then he growled, with his Grinch fingers nervously drumming, "I must find some way to keep Christmas from coming!"   When I was pregnant with Sawyer and I looked forward to the experiences parenthood would bring, Christmas was high up on my list. Growing up, I loved Christmas. I remember racing home from school on… Continue reading Stolen Christmas

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Floodgates

By the time Sawyer started school, most of my anxieties were fuelled by a fear that he would be misunderstood. He had not long since turned 4 years old when he went in to reception class, and had been verbal for only a few short weeks. Sawyer’s inability to keep still remained his overarching characteristic,… Continue reading Floodgates

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Childhood Sweethearts

Before we received Sawyer’s diagnosis of autism, I struggled to explain his unusual behaviours to other parents. I desperately wanted them to see how sweet and loving he was, but often those traits were masked by his inability to keep still, his fondness for running headlong in to walls, and his exceptional talent for breaking… Continue reading Childhood Sweethearts

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School Disco

Just before the end of half term, Sawyer announced that he wanted to go to his Halloween-themed school disco. His Dad and I looked up at each other in disbelief, shock, and a little bit of fear. Sawyer has never been able to cope with the sensory overload of a disco. Between the flashing lights, loud… Continue reading School Disco

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Deadline

The final deadline for Sawyer's EHCP funding was on Tuesday and I had already been told that it was unlikely to go to panel until the day before. Nevertheless, I checked the post with angst each day for a week leading up the deadline, cursing every day it wasn't there. By the time Tuesday finally crept… Continue reading Deadline