Autism, Family

Pieces of Eight

Dear Sawyer, Today is your 8th birthday. And what a year you have had! At school, this year has been a real turning point for you. You have gone from not wanting to go to school at all, to winning an award for effort in the end of year assembly! You seem to have found… Continue reading Pieces of Eight

Autism, Family

Blame: The Husband Diaries

As Lloyd’s story starts to unfold between us, I am surprised by how easily he can access his emotions when I ask a direct question. It occurs to me for the first time that although he rarely offers out his innermost thoughts, they are in fact very close to the surface. The conversation continues to… Continue reading Blame: The Husband Diaries

Autism, Family

Denial: The Husband Diaries

I sat on the end of the sofa and blinked slowly as my tired eyes followed Lloyd around the room. It had been only a few hours since Sawyer was given a formal diagnosis of ASD. Both of our children were in bed and my mind was still buzzing with it all - filled to… Continue reading Denial: The Husband Diaries

Autism, Family

Autism Dads

Fathers of autistic children are often lost and forgotten. Their feelings are not regularly discussed, their voices not heard, and their stories never told. If you were to google the words ‘autism blog’ you would discover pages and pages of words written by mothers, but there are comparitively very few that tell stories of what… Continue reading Autism Dads

Autism, Family

Confessions

Sawyer is an incredibly endearing and often hilarious 7-year-old. He is kind, inquisitive, outgoing and incredibly handsome.  He faces the challenges autism throws at him with admirable determination. The meltdowns, the sensory overload that fills his days, and his lack of special awareness are an example of the threads that tie Sawyer and autism together.… Continue reading Confessions

Autism, Family, Uncategorized

New Beginnings

I’ll never forget the first time Sawyer dropped a mince pie, picked it up, dropped it, picked it up again and placed it onto Santa’s tray. By the time his sixth year rolled around I was finally able to tell people that Sawyer was starting to get excited for Christmas. Although it happened far later… Continue reading New Beginnings

Autism, Family, Uncategorized

Stolen Christmas

Then he growled, with his Grinch fingers nervously drumming, "I must find some way to keep Christmas from coming!"   When I was pregnant with Sawyer and I looked forward to the experiences parenthood would bring, Christmas was high up on my list. Growing up, I loved Christmas. I remember racing home from school on… Continue reading Stolen Christmas

Autism, Family, Uncategorized

Floodgates

By the time Sawyer started school, most of my anxieties were fuelled by a fear that he would be misunderstood. He had not long since turned 4 years old when he went in to reception class, and had been verbal for only a few short weeks. Sawyer’s inability to keep still remained his overarching characteristic,… Continue reading Floodgates