Autism, Family

2 Steps Back

Sawyer sailed through Year 3 with relative ease and for a minute there it looked like his additional support really had been a magic key that had opened the door to a calm and positive education. As the summer term came to an end both Sawyer and his sister were eager to begin the six… Continue reading 2 Steps Back

Autism, Family

The Bigger Picture

The emotions that run through me when I watch this old video are so conflicting. I'm filled with love. It seems like forever ago and also like yesterday. I remember those pyjamas, the new baby smell, the sleepless exhilaration that came with becoming mother of two children. But I also remember the feeling in the… Continue reading The Bigger Picture

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New Beginnings

I’ll never forget the first time Sawyer dropped a mince pie, picked it up, dropped it, picked it up again and placed it onto Santa’s tray. By the time his sixth year rolled around I was finally able to tell people that Sawyer was starting to get excited for Christmas. Although it happened far later… Continue reading New Beginnings

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Stolen Christmas

Then he growled, with his Grinch fingers nervously drumming, "I must find some way to keep Christmas from coming!"   When I was pregnant with Sawyer and I looked forward to the experiences parenthood would bring, Christmas was high up on my list. Growing up, I loved Christmas. I remember racing home from school on… Continue reading Stolen Christmas

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Floodgates

By the time Sawyer started school, most of my anxieties were fuelled by a fear that he would be misunderstood. He had not long since turned 4 years old when he went in to reception class, and had been verbal for only a few short weeks. Sawyer’s inability to keep still remained his overarching characteristic,… Continue reading Floodgates

Autism, Family

Childhood Sweethearts

Before we received Sawyer’s diagnosis of autism, I struggled to explain his unusual behaviours to other parents. I desperately wanted them to see how sweet and loving he was, but often those traits were masked by his inability to keep still, his fondness for running headlong in to walls, and his exceptional talent for breaking… Continue reading Childhood Sweethearts

Autism, Family

School Disco

Just before the end of half term, Sawyer announced that he wanted to go to his Halloween-themed school disco. His Dad and I looked up at each other in disbelief, shock, and a little bit of fear. Sawyer has never been able to cope with the sensory overload of a disco. Between the flashing lights, loud… Continue reading School Disco

Autism, Family

Deadline

The final deadline for Sawyer's EHCP funding was on Tuesday and I had already been told that it was unlikely to go to panel until the day before. Nevertheless, I checked the post with angst each day for a week leading up the deadline, cursing every day it wasn't there. By the time Tuesday finally crept… Continue reading Deadline

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Planning to Fail

Sawyer’s planning meeting took place just days before school reopened after the long summer break. These meetings take place after all professional reports are gathered, and mark the end of EHCP application, determining what should be written in to the final plan. All the guidance documentation suggests that the child in question should be allowed… Continue reading Planning to Fail

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Villa Romero

Malaga airport had been stuffy and loud as we made our way through passport control and on to baggage claim. The excitement of being on holiday, combined with unspent energy and autism meant Sawyer began to sensory-seek as soon as we stepped off the plane. Charging down the hallways closed-eyed and spinning, he narrowly missed… Continue reading Villa Romero